People always tell you to go after your dreams. Dream big and don’t stop going, fight for what you believe in. In the end, it will be worth it.
I agree with all this but it’s also bullshit. The words are true and I genuinely believe them but because they’re so true it’s shit. The in between is not easy and it makes your cry suddenly out of the blue because you’re doing what you know in your heart to be right but your head is fighting with you. It’s telling you all of the reasons you won’t make it and how financially you’re headed in a downward spiral. It’s telling you to give up and stick to a guideline because what you’re doing doesn’t follow a regular path, it’s too all over the place. You won’t make it. I hear from my own thoughts more than anybody else’s. The fight is internal and doesn’t show signs of who the winner is going to be. If I throw one punch, my doubt hits me with two jabs. It always has to double what I do to make the fight harder.
I think I’m in this alone in following my dreams. There’s always people around you ready to support you and be there for you in anyway they can. Don’t throw yourself a pity party because that’s one event that no one should go to. It’s a waste of time and energy to keep telling yourself this pursuit is between just you and your doubt. If you take a step back, you can see that it’s so much more than what you think.
This is a short, sweet, and to the point kind of post. Leave your bullshit behind. Dreams take work and persistence, nothing will be handed to you. When you get pushed down, get back up with more fight so you’re not able to be pushed down again. Don’t let the bullshit win.